i dunno it's good or not, but what do you think?

Hey there bloggers :3
long time no see~ ^^
so, for today.. hmm oyeah.. yesterday i did silly thing, you wanna know?
i recorded my own voice when singing lol ^______^
and i need to fix my high pitch voice, by control my breathing (yeonni-chan advice) :))
it's hard duh xD but yeahh i still try hard no matter what.. ^^
http://www.4shared.com/mp3/85hHoZjH/Voice_001.html -> Safe and Sound - Taylor Swift (cover by me, without music)
http://www.4shared.com/mp3/thRCWNOP/Voice_002.html -> Time Machine - SNSD (cover by me, without music)
sorry it's kinda LQ.. i recorded in my cellphone..
please do comment! XDD and i plan to cover You Will Never Be - Julia Sheer.. it's an awesome song ^_^
okay that's all folks :)

[lyrics] You Will Never Be - Julia Sheer

well, hey bloggers^^
uhmm.. i just dropped here and want to tell you something..
i will try to change myself.. to be a better me..
no more crying again and etc..
thanks to yeonni-chan.. i know what should i do now..
and for today post, i will post lyrics of my fav song You Will Never Be sing by Julia Sheer
it's really great & inspiring song.. so yeah^^ here

You Will Never Be lyrics

How did we ever come to this?
I never thought you'd be
Someone I'd have to miss
And there I was,
Caught in your game.
Needing answers
That never came
So we took a chance
You said you were strong
Strong enough
But you were wrong

And now I'm...

CHORUS:

Deafened by your silence
blinded by the tears
if you're looking for forgiveness
you won't find that here
cause you lied your way to heartbreak
and now its all too clear
that you will never be....

Look at her
she won't ever compare
you can say you're sorry
but I still don't care
was she worth this mess
was she worth this pain
you can say it's her fault
but you're both to blame

And now I'm ....

Deafened by your silence
blinded by the tears
if you're looking for forgiveness
you won't find that here
cause you lied your way to heartbreak
and now its all too clear
that you will never be....

Looking back it was all so easy
I hope you know you're my last mistake
Don't come around and say you need me
I won't stay

Now I know that you were so deceiving
was it fun for you to walk away
I hope you liked it
cause she's so damn easy
you won't change

Deafened by your silence
blinded by the tears
if you're looking for forgiveness
you won't find that here
cause you lied your way to heartbreak
and now its all too clear
that you will never be....

That you will never be...... 

Fanfic for tantan (part 2)

Mood: Sad T^T

Listening: Epic - Big Time Rush

hey bloggers.. here i am with 2nd chapter of my friend's fanfic, tantan :P so yeah here we go.. :) feel free to comment ^_^ 6^

Part2

Right now, if I could ride a time machine
and go to meet you
I wouldn't wish for anything else
Before the memories become distant and fleeting...

(~^O^)~~(^O^~)

Hana’s POV

#np: Time Machine - SNSD

-Mom’s cemetery-

“I really don’t want to leave you, Mom.. I still don’t get a chance to make you proud of me.. Even though that everyone said bad things to us.. I always love you no matter what.. Mom, what should i do now? You’re the reason behind my passion for what i do.. You listen to all my problem.. I will make it up to you, by live happily and be a somebody.. To the world you may be nothing, but you’re my everything..”

I left my mom’s grave and back to the dorm. I don’t know what i wanna do right now. Aish, okay Hana.. you just need to rest today. Tomorrow you will start study, yeaah that’s just what i need right now.

*Waiting for the bus&look at the watch*

Oh man, it’s already 5pm already?! Dorm will be closed at 7pm..

*Bus comes&get in the bus*

Finally, waa~ It’s almost full. Is there any empty seat? Ah~ there’s one beside that guy. And he sleep? I should not make any noise.

*Sit in the back*

I hope i still have plenty of time.

#np: Diamond – SNSD

<BUZZ! *my cellphone*>

One new chat from Nadya in my Yahoo Messenger. That maknae~^^

Nadya >> HANAA!

Me>> whatssup?^^

Nadya>> nothing.. btw, you’re in college now right? Congrats ne~ ;3

Me>> thanks maknae-ya~ so, how is your day today?

Nadya>> hmm fine.. busy with my dance class activity and school of course -_- how about you?

Me>> kinda bit mess up today.. but i’m okay now.. ^_^ so, don’t worry..

Nadya>> ah~ do you wanna to talk about?

Me>> naah, it’s okay.. oyea i heard that there’s this event for chihoon fans here in Seoul.. lol

Nadya>> what? Really? Oh god, when?! :O

Me>> Next week i think.. you should come here..

Nadya>> oh my.. next week? I have exam on that week.. great! -_-

Me>> don’t be sad.. because that’s the sign that you meet chihoon sooner..

Nadya>> how do you know that? >.< bvt hopefully it comes true ^-^

Me>> from my heart.. lol.. yeah.. hopefully that i can meet Kang Hyukmin LOL btw, my battery is low.. gotta go^^ byeeee

Nadya>> you still adore that dude? Ah okay.. see yaa hana ^3^

*Turn off my cellphone*

Oh god, it’s 6pm already. Aish.

Suddenly, i realize the guy beside me woke up with his cap in his face. He sleep well i think.

“Sorry if i bothered you..” i apologized to him.

“uhm.. what? I fell a sleep? Ah it’s okay..” he looks really tired.

“okay..”

“If you mind to answer this, how long i slept?” wait. He already slept when i sit with him. And it’s not an important question. Funny guy.

“well.. you already slept when i sit with you.. and i got in to this bus at 5pm..”

“oh.. really? So everyone was right i’m a sleepy head.. lol” he laugh. He has good looking.

“haha.. when you got in to this bus?” i asked him.

“3:30pm”

I laugh.

“why you laughing?”

“nothing.. haha” i laugh again.

“weird.. btw, what’s your name?” he asked.

“Hana.. and i’m not weird—“

“ah hana, the weird girl.. haha..” he called me weird girl? He’s so in trouble.

“ya~ you babo—‘ your name must be mr.babo”

“i’m not babo.. and my name Kim and you can call me The Gorgeous Man.. Haha.. ” he told jokes again. This guy really..

“oh okay mr.babo, oops! I mean Kim, nice to meet you..” ^^

“right -.- nice to meet you too Hana, the dinosaurus..”

“how come you call me dinosaurus? You!~” -_-

“haha.. you cute.. ah~ i call you choco.. because you’re sweet like chocolate..” oh, he can be cheesy? I guess he’s a playboy? Lol

“wow, cheesy.. haha up to you.. btw, i need to go.. it’s nice to chit chat with you, Kim..”

“haha.. okay, bye bye choco.. it’s really nice to talk with you.. hope we can meet again in the right time..”

“ah hopefully.. bye”

i got out from the bus and i rush go to the dorm.

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Kim’s POV

That girl, Hana.. she’s really cute.. lol^^

*cellphone rings*

“Kim speaking.. I’m on the way right now.. okay, Mom.. bye”

-----

Tantan’s POV (Intan)

-Room-

Luckily, my third baggage is here. It’s complete right? Okay.. i need to change my clothes, and where did i put my cellphone? Oh god.. my cellphone?  Where is it?!

*searching everywhere*

I didn’t left it in my parent’s house, did I? I remembered exactly my cellphone still in my pocket when i talked with that lady/mom.

Dang it, i need my cellphone. It’s like one of my precious thing i have, and i can’t live without it >.<

Not longer after..

*Bell rings*

Who is that?! Don’t he or she know that i lost my precious thing.

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Sungyeol’s POV

#np: Superstar – Big Time Rush

Is there anyone there? ^^;;

*the door opens*

“can you just leave this door?” pokerface girl. I’m in the right room.

“well, hey again..”

“oh you? What are you doing here? I have to do something here.. kinda busy..”

“oh, sorry.. i just want to give this back to you.. your cellphone fell accidentally when you left the lift..” i explained.

“MY CELLPHONE.. OH MY PRECIOUS CELLPHONE.. I’VE BEEN SEARCHING FOR YOU..”

I laugh.

“what’s so funny?”

I still laugh.

“ya! Why you laugh-.-?” she start annoyed to me.

“your reaction.. haha”

“my reaction? What’s wrong with it?-_-“

“nothing..”

“ah you.. what’s your name again? Thanks anyway..” she smiled a bit. She looks pretty when she smiles.

“it’s Sungyeol.. your name is Intan right?”

“i call you Yeol okay? Thanks Yeol.. yeah, but you can call me tantan.. usually my closest friend call me tantan..”

“Yeol? No one ever called me that, but up to you ^_^ okay tantan.. btw, i need to go back to my room..”

“Okay yeol.. see you~”

“good night tantan” ^_^

*Close the door*

Finally my cellphone! Wait.. why i act so nice to him, and how come i called him Yeol? O.o what’s happening to me?

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Sungyeol’s POV

-Room-

Tantan, she is not a pokerfaces girl after all.. and she’s kinda looks cute when she acts like that.. haha wait.. what am i thinking?

“Ya! Why the light still on? Turn it off!== Dude, you don’t go to sleep?” Myungsoo suddenly woke up.

“ah right.. I just get ready to sleep.. okay okay.==” I replied him and go to sleep.

-----

Tantan’s POV

#np: I know You know – Big Time Rush

*Bell rings again*

Who is that again?-.- I wanna sleep right now..

-----

Hana’s POV

*the door opens*

“uhmm.. hi^^”

“oh you.. get in.. don’t forget to shut the door” she told me to go in.

“okay..” then i close the door.

“So, where do you up today? You returned here late than i am..”

“ah nothing.. i just got mess up, but it’s okay for now..”

“oh okay if you say so.. btw, since we’re roommate, we must to know each other first.. so..”

“oh right.. i forgot introduce myself to you.. sorry^^ Hana, from Indonesia..”

“no chils.. Indonesia too? Can speak Indo? tantan, mix blood Chinese-Indo.. Well, my real name is Intan actually but my friends often called by tantan.. so it’s up to you to call me what..”

“ah thanks anyway.. i call you tantan okay? Yeah i lived here when i was 3 years old because my parents had a job here at that time.. I can speak Indonesia, but not so fluently.. i can speak English&Korean fluently & Japanese a bit^^ really? Cool ne~” >.<

“oh i lived here since i was born.. my parents lived here.. i can speak English and Korean fluently.. And Chinese a bit, but i can’t speak Indo..”

“oh cool ^^ nice to meet you tantan.. hope we can be a good friend and roommate ^_^”

“nice to meet you too, Hana.. hope that so too” ^^

“anyway, can you tell me about your life?” i asked.

When i asked her that, her face changed really straight. Is that a wrong question?

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well that's for this post~ ^^ gimme some comments, comment will be very very loved :3 lol 

Fanfic for tantan (Part 1)

Hi there bloggers ;;)

so, for this post.. i will post about something different :p

You can see from the title, it's a fanfic :3 this fanfic is request from my beloved childish friend, tantan :D >> http://myendless-fantasy.blogspot.com , http://heresforyouandi.blogspot.com -> her blog! *promoting!* XD

so yeah.. here's the part 1 of the fanfic.. :p

Part1

“Cross my heart and hope to die, i promise that i will never lie, and if my promise ever does go, i give to you my eternal soul~”

(~^o^)~~(^o^~)

Intan’s POV

“so, be a good girl there okay sweety? And don’t embarassed our family by your bad attitude..”

“when you become this nice all sudden? Why i would embarassed my family? I already be a useless daughter for you.. i will take care my life by myself..”

“aish~ you useless daughter!”

She shouted at me but i ignored her and keep walking to my room.

Sigh. It’s suck that they only want me to be a perfect daughter. And i know they already dissapointed at me when i was born. Let’s just forget that. I have to go to the bathroom

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Hana’s POV

So, this is my new college. I see. It’s really glamorous and big. I will keep trying my best for my studies! ^^

“here’s my room! Finally~” knock the door. Silent. Ring the Bell. Still Silent.

Probably no one is in the room.  OMG i need to go the bathroom, where is it? Ah~ bathroom!

*Open the door* KYAAAAAAAAAA~

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Intan’s POV

This is because of that shitty food that mom ordered. Aww~ my stomach, HRRRRRR~ my stomach doesn’t like her too right?

*The Bell rings*

Who is it? Ah~ i already locked the door, didn’t I? O.o probably yes.

*Suddenly the door open*

OMO~ YAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~

“dou nuguya?” i screamed terrifiedly. And i saw that person it’s a girl

“Sorry~ i’m sorry.. i should knock the door first.. sorry.” She close her eyes and she bow at me. Why this girl just get outta here.

“I will make it up to you~” she continued talking.

“okay.. If you want make it up with me, why you don’t get out?! YA~ i’m not done here!” i scream at her because my stomach start to scrolling like a mouse.

“Ah yes, oh sorry again!” she bow again and shut the door.

Finally, she’s gone. That was so terrific.

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Hana’s POV

Oh god. What i’ve done here? I didn’t know there’s someone in there. What should i do? ><

*Cellphone ringing*

“Hello? Ah yes, this is Hana, What can i do for you? Wh.. wha.. what? Okay, thank you for the infomation..”

I rush to the Hospital, hopefully she’s okay.

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Intan’s POV

Finally.. It’s okay now.

*looking all direction*

Wait.. where the heck that girl going? She really like a jet or something O,o okay, i should check there’s no baggage left. First, Second, wait? Where’s my third baggage? Oh that hotel maid want to mess up with me huh?

*Rush off to the lift&got in*

“Hey..” someone called.

“are you talking to me?” i asked to him.

“yeah.. why you so rush about?” that guy asked me back.

“none of your business..” lazy to reply, just think about my baggage.

“ah okay.. what’s your name?”

“why you want to know?”

“i’m just asking..”

What this guy want from me?

“okay, Intan..”

“Intan, nice name.. nice to meet you, Intan.. I’m Sungyeol..” 

“okay boy.. i’m leaving okay?”

*got out the lift*

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Sungyeol’s POV

That girl is really.. *grins* Intan, the poker face girl.

*something on the floor*

Who’s cellphone is this? Maybe this is the pokerface’s cellphone.. oh well.. i will give it back later when i meet her again..

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Hana’s POV

I ran as fast as i can to the hospital. And i ran to the emergency room. The doctor still doing his job for my mom. My mom had lung cancer 4 years ago. She’s been so ill in this past 4 years. My dad never care for any of this. He just get drunk, drunk and drunk everyday with his friends.

Suddenly, the doctor just came out from the emergency room.

“Doctor, How is my mom?” i asked him.

“I’m Sorry..” he apologized to me.

“Wh.. doctor? What’s wrong with my mom?”

“She constantly breathless and coughing up blood when she finished walking in the park.. her lung cancer was getting worse.. i’m sorry miss Hana.. we already tried our best to medicate her..” the Doctor explained.

I was speechless. I cried and think about her again. Mom, why you leave me? You can’t see your own daughter succesfull later.. Mom, why? I’m sorry i still cannot make you proud of me.. I’m sorry you have to suffer this past 4 years.. I’m so sorry.. and i love you so much like you raised me with your kindness love..

Sorry if it's bad, i don't have any good idea for the story.. so yeaah :p and sorry for my bad english.. i'm still a beginner i guess ==" comment pls^^ comment will be very love <3 for tantan, you happy? :P

Braces off! XDD

mood: normal ;)
listening: Telephone - Lady Gaga ft. Beyonce :3

hey there bloggers ;;)
just came up and want to tell you something ^^
i just went to dentist and my braces already removed or came out lol :))
i realize that my teeth is REALLY small :p LOL
i look the 2nd version of me, it's not like me.. maybe because i just used to braces :p
but yeaah i like it, i look awesome (maybe.. ^_^) and i can eat all i want without hurting my teeth yayyy! XDD
this is me (without braces)

i look messy lol :)) but look at my teeth, ;;) nice right? LOL
okay that's for this posting :3

"curhat"

hey bloggies^^
ah long time no see you all, and sorry for not post anything nowadays.. hehe^^v
so yeaah..
hmm for today post, i will "curhat" to my blog.. since i don't know who can i talk to..
i think about him again.. you know who right?^^;;
it's because of Miley Cyrus song, called 'Stay'
it's really... :(
if you don't know the song, you can download on 4shared or mediafire, just search on google..
and for the lyrics>> http://www.metrolyrics.com/stay-lyrics-miley-cyrus.html

Miley Cyrus - Stay 
Well, it's good to hear your voiceI hope you're doing fineAnd if you ever wonderedI'm lonely here tonight

I'm lost here in this momentAnd time keeps slipping byAnd if I could have just one wishI'd have you by my side

Oh, oh, I miss youOh, oh, I need you

And I love you more than I did beforeAnd if today I don't see your faceNothing's changed, no one can take your placeIt gets harder every day

Say you love me more than you did beforeAnd I'm sorry it's this wayBut I'm coming home, I'll be coming homeAnd if you ask me, I will stay, I will stay

Well, I tried to live without youThe tears fall from my eyesI'm alone and I feel emptyGod, I'm torn apart inside

I look up at the starsHoping you're doing the sameAnd somehow I feel closerAnd I can hear you say

Oh, oh, I miss youOh, oh, I need you

I love you more than I did beforeAnd if today I don't see your faceNothing's changed, no one can take your placeIt gets harder every day

Say you love me more than you did beforeAnd I'm sorry it's this wayBut I'm coming home, I'll be coming homeAnd if you ask me, I will stay, I will stay, always stay

I never wanna lose youAnd if I had to, I would choose youSo always stay, please, always stayYou're the one that I hold on to'Cause my heart would stop without you

I love you more than I did beforeAnd if today I don't see your faceNothing's changed, no one can take your placeIt gets harder every day

Say you love me more than you did beforeAnd I'm sorry that it's this wayBut I'm coming home, I'll be coming homeAnd if you ask me, I will stay, I will stay, I'll always stay

And I love you more than I did beforeAnd I'm sorry that it's this wayBut I'm coming home, I'll be coming homeAnd if you ask, I will stay, I will stay, I will stay

i shouldn't cried again.. okay.. maybe that's for today.. i don't know what to talk about.. and i don't want to talk for a while.. so yeaah thanks for understanding^^